Of Lives and Choices

From whatever little I have seen and gathered in the 23 years of my existence, I am left with a sinking feeling that life has got no point to it. It is totally arbitrary. And we dont have the choice. We just simply dont.
Lets start form the very beginning. What choice did we have in our incipiency? None whatsoever. The single most important decision of our lives is not in our hands. It is made by some one else. And more likely than not, the decision that they make for us, without taking our views into account, is made under the influence of a set of factors which may not be totally under their control. You may say, what rubbish! How can some one consult us when we dont even exist? Very true. But dont you see, that is the whole point.
After we are born, we are weak and totally dependent upon others for our existance. These are the times when our lives are shaped. Our experiences in our formative years are once again not decided by us but by some one else. We cannot choose what we learn, how we learn. You see, we are too inexperienced to make choices, which is true. By the time we are experienced enough, we are left with none to make. So we try to rectify that by making choices for others.
We always live our lives through proxy. Usually we like that. You know, playing God to others. Having control. Making their decisions for them. Taking away their choices and in turn making their lives totally arbitrary and pointless.

Thought for the Day

For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder.

From the song "Hey Jude" by The Beatles.

State of my mind

There are 22 females in our batch and there were around 30 final offers made last year by investment banks. Therefore, statistically speaking, it is easier to get an i-bank internship than a bandi out here.

Thought for the Day

Though there are a plethora of jobs avialable for us engineers (err...), we get paid peanuts by the companies. But what the companies should realise is that if you pay peanuts, you'll get monkeys !!

I hope

Things are going to get very painful in the coming days. The outcome is going to be very uncertain. I hope I can survive. I am reminded of the last few lines of "Shawshank Redemption".

"I find I'm so excited, I can barely sit still or hold a thought in my head. I think it's the excitement only a free man can feel, a free man at the start of a long journey whose conclusion is uncertain. I hope I can make it across the border. I hope to see my friend, and shake his hand. I hope the Pacific is as blue as it has been in my dreams. I hope. "

Thought for the Day

"I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by"
-- Douglas Adam

Contradictions

Too cliched to say that life is full of them. So i wouldnt say it. But what would you say if i tell you that to be surrounded by females in good quantity and quality is not a very rewarding experience ? (Please dont take the word "surrounded" literally)
And that too after spending 4 years in an engineering college and one more in working in a manufacturing firm that produces trucks?
This is similar to stating that after searching for water for 4 odd years in Thar Desert and one more in Atacama Desert(yes, this place recieves the worlds least amount of rainfall), when all of a sudden I see fresh, gurgling mountain brook and i am antagonised by the sight of it.
Contradiction? Stockholme syndrome? Too much generalisation? I guess thats more accurate.